i don't have a clue what is wrong with me lately but holy grouchiness. i have never been so irritated on so many occasions its slightly ridiculous really. it all started when my main squeeze would just tell me what i wanted to hear you know i knew that he was and he admitted that he was and ahhh i hate when people just tell me what i want to hear because honestly that is stupid why would you do that....well because you want the other person to be happy of course and im sure this trick would work on every girl BUT me....he sadly learned after the silent treatment with a hint of a glare was incorporated. then it just continued downhill from there he got mad that i was never happy with his answers and if he answered either way i got mad...slightly true but only because i thought he was still playing his stupid answer to make me happy game (now im just venting again YIKES!) and then it explode in a giant bomb playing games and he let someone win which i am not a fan of either...moral of the story someone has been in the dog house for very stupid reasons. and you know whats annoying is that i realize that its stupid im getting annoyed/irritated way to late so late that we are already past the third grade stage of im not talking to you anymore off to ignoring that it even happened. and it made me realize that honestly its not worth it i care so much for this boy and i dont want it to be like this that i need to seriously grow up and just let him answer the way he thinks i want it to be answered and just smile because that is who he is and accept the fact that he is a nice guy and will let someone win just because if he didnt they would have had a ridiculous amount of cards in their hands and you know its a stupid game.

moral of the story: im a competitive little boy that isn't a fan of people that give me what i want with out me deserving it. BUT i will change i have written out for the whole blogging world to see and folks that is the first step to fixing a problem right? right!