it was one of those nights when i didn't want to do anything...like anything i should have been doing a lot of things but i just couldnt get motivated to do anything and before i knew it i had watched 3 hours of hart of dixie (i was behind on the show....not that it makes it better) and after it was finished i was disappointed not in the show but in the fact that i literally sat for 3 hours doing mindless crap. there has been a lot on my mind lately with my move and all (yay for change i need out of this place!) and also with people....i have been thinking a lot lately on if i would be truly content with my life if i died tomorrow...i know yikes thats super depressing and what not but it has been a good re-evaluating moment. I like everyone am not perfect i've done so many things i wish i hadn't but from all my mistakes i have learned so many things. i know that all the tests and trials that i've had and will have in my life are what i need to be shaped into the person that i need to be even if its terrible. and i'm grateful for that knowledge! so this post is a reminder to myself that i need to not be so grumpy during tests and trials because they will end and i will hopefully learn my lesson so i dont have to do it again;)